Why I Am Afraid to Send my Daughter to School8:20:00 PM
While looking at my three year old daughter, I can feel how time flies. She is tall and smart and all! She really is someone I dreamed to have as a daughter. This year, she will be going to school. Actually, she always wanted to go to school but I think she deserves to spend more time playing and watching videos and other fun stuffs in the house. Because when she is already studying, she would spend more time in school.
There are mornings when she wakes up saying,
"Mommy, it is Monday. I want to go to school."
What should a good mommy say to her? No? Because she really isn't in school yet? Or yes, just to make her happy? I say both. Lol. If No doesn't work, then I'll try Yes. But actually, whatever is the answer, she would still insist to go to school the whole day.
As a matter of fact, she would put on her clothes, her shoes and wear her Minnie Mouse backpack. She'll be in a "going mode" for a few hours then she will forget it once she sees her favorite cartoon in TV or in YouTube. I really owe the TV screen and the computer monitor a lot.
Last year, we tried to send her to school but the school where we want her in cannot accept her yet because she was just two. They didn't have playschool too. I didn't insist because I also think she is too young. But at her young age, she already knows her phonetics and could read. She can count 1-20, know her shapes, body parts, colors and others. I know she is very prepared for school. She might even get bored because she already know the lessons just like what happened when I sent her to a Reading summer class last year.
So this adorable daughter of mine is going to school this year. And to be honest, I am afraid. I have fears of letting her stay in school while I am not around. What comes into my mind are the violence happening around us. The shooting incidents in schools, the bullying, the kidnapping and all. I know I am thinking too much negative stuff but we have to accept the fact that this are happening and have occurred in some schools. We know there are people who don't fear God and doesn't have a heart even for children. I am really afraid. Super duper mega afraid. But I am not saying that this is going to happen here, I am just scared because of what is happening all around the world. I know you know what I mean.
Are schools still safe? I don't know. What if another earthquake happens while she is in school? What if there would be another tsunami alert in our area? Would I be able to fly and get her to safety?
What if some won't like her in school? Well, she is a friendly type but we have to recognize the reality that some kids are brats (lol). I am worrying that she might get pushed in the playground or someone might get her pencil and just anything that might hurt her or annoy her or make her feel bad.
Many things happen in school. A lot really. I've been there. We've all been there. Yes, we learn not just academic stuff but even how to live and to be a better person. I just hope we could send her to a school that will mold her into a good person same way as we brought her up in the house. And I hope, she'll be smarter and not duller when in school. This worries me too because sometimes, teachers and classmates make kids duller (just an observation). That is why we have to decide on which school she could go.
But in truth, I don't want to let her to go to school. I am thinking of homeschooling because of all the worries I have.
But then again, she might feel like she was deprived of something "normal" to her age and something that is experienced by the majority. Since there isn't homeschooling in our area, I have no choice but send her to school.
Forgive a mom that worries too much.
I need milk or coffee or coffee with milk.
Did you worry about the day your kid's started going to school too?